The good thing about going away for a week is that you come back to all sorts of wonderful storying! :-)
Fear. It's all about the fear in the end, I think. The fear, and the inability to break it long enough to take the risks that, while holding the potential of rejection, also hold the potential of salvation within them as well.
Whether it's asking Stacy to stay or taking the time and effort to experiment w/Crandall, he doesn't take the risks. He'll dice w/other's lives, but never his own. One wonders if he's grown up to be far more like his father than he'd ever cared to be.
And you're right about the music... perhaps he'd could have made it, or at least become better, if he'd tried, but it was the bigger gamble, so he stayed w/what he knew. It also occurs to me that in some ways, medicine offers more chance for puzzles. With music, you stay w/a set for a while, practice then performance, whether it's covered or original. With medicine, every case is different, if only slightly.
And yes, for someone who only believes in the sensual world, his dreams are awfully powerful and holding-of-meaning. Perhaps he should think about that.
-Katrina
PS - Love the one sentence bolding! Very title-ish, while still giving a hint of what's to come. -K
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Date: 2007-09-04 10:45 pm (UTC)The good thing about going away for a week is that you come back to all sorts of wonderful storying! :-)
Fear. It's all about the fear in the end, I think. The fear, and the inability to break it long enough to take the risks that, while holding the potential of rejection, also hold the potential of salvation within them as well.
Whether it's asking Stacy to stay or taking the time and effort to experiment w/Crandall, he doesn't take the risks. He'll dice w/other's lives, but never his own. One wonders if he's grown up to be far more like his father than he'd ever cared to be.
And you're right about the music... perhaps he'd could have made it, or at least become better, if he'd tried, but it was the bigger gamble, so he stayed w/what he knew. It also occurs to me that in some ways, medicine offers more chance for puzzles. With music, you stay w/a set for a while, practice then performance, whether it's covered or original. With medicine, every case is different, if only slightly.
And yes, for someone who only believes in the sensual world, his dreams are awfully powerful and holding-of-meaning. Perhaps he should think about that.
-Katrina
PS - Love the one sentence bolding! Very title-ish, while still giving a hint of what's to come. -K